Donna October

...a girl of many moods.

Monday, May 22, 2017

Endings And Beginnings

I'm currently doing something that I wanted to do for a long time, but I never did it because of other people. I used to put other people's opinions and wishes first, and I never had the courage to decide for myself and what I really want and just follow my dreams. I've realized that the more you make your decisions based on other people instead of what You really want, you just gonna end up unhappy and full of regrets.

If you think about it, your whole life is just constant cycle of endings and new beginnings, and nothing more.

Some of them, small and irrelevant, part of your everyday life, you're not even gonna notice any change, but some of them are huge and they gonna affect all aspects of your life.

So, with every ending, there is this bittersweet feeling. Like you're nostalgic and free at the same time. And that fucking nostalgic feeling is what makes you scared of starting something new and you just stay in the same place, being only "half-happy".

So, fuck that. Fuck being half happy, half fulfilled, and at the end of the day half alive.

We tend to forget how short life is and not everyone gets a second chance and many opportunities, so we shouldn't be scared of new beginnings and changes, cause that's what life is all about.

Being brave, having faith in Your decisions and doing the right thing at the right time.

And here I am, for the first time in my life, working on something that I wanted for so long.

I'm not gonna say exactly what I'm doing, not yet, cause there's a lot to do before things are official, but let's just say that it's one of my biggest decisions in life, for sure, and it has something to do with leaving everything behind and starting a new life. Better one. The best*. :) That's why I'm writing this post, as a reminder to stay focused and keep working until I get there. And that would be all for now.

Stay focused!