Gloomy Saturday mornings like this one are made for baking and country music. Baking always cheers me up and makes me feel all warm and cozy. Also, country music. I am sure I lived somewhere in the deep south in one of my past lives. Getting out of bed this morning was really hard, because the weather is so dark, wet and cold, it kills every bit of motivation you have. However, I somehow managed to get up, made myself a strong black coffee, went out and bought flowers for making the atmosphere at home more cheerful and spring-y. It's just how I cope with the darkness. And of course decided to bake, and I made lamingtons, which are probably one of my favorite desserts ever. I used this recipe: https://www.sweetestmenu.com/easy-homemade-lamingtons/ , very simple. My plans for the rest of the day pretty much revolve around food, and that is basically how I spend my Saturdays during winter.
Lately, I've been seeing the words self-care and healing a lot and at the same time I see a lot of people leaving social media, or at least some platforms.
I used to do this a lot, back when my social media presence was just a hobby, but now that it became some sort of a part time job, I started to feel the pressure.
Because, I FEEL like I need a break from social media, but at the same time I have all these events and collabs, and I can't be unprofessional and cancel all that. But on the other hand, (mental)health comes first, so I wouldn't be surprised if I give myself some time.
It's very sad that no matter how much we talk about mental health, it's still not taken very seriously.
Also, I kinda forgot to put myself first somewhere along the way ( different thing from being selfish ) and I know that has bad influence on my energy, my creativity and at the end of the day, quality of life.
You know that feeling when you're so busy and have so much to do and you're going through so much, but feel like you have nothing to say, cause it's too much for your mind to process and you feel like nothing is actually going on and every day is the same, when in fact is hectic and crazy.
A lot of it has to do with the fact that I basically have two jobs now, but also the background I have with anxiety makes everything a lot more difficult.
